History is there for us to learn from our mistakes, so have I learnt from mine!

That is the million dollar question and the answer with hope anew is YES YES YES!

I did love all my mistakes  at their various stages but alas love was never sustained  and all ended for different reasons.

The marriage of 7 years left me  unhappy, unloved and a feeling the grass was greener on the other side. 

The first live in relationship of 3 years was dominated by a jealous and controlling lover.

The second live in left me feeling the most traumatised.  After six years of emotional and to a lesser extent physical abuse, he finally  left me at my all time weakest after declaring his affair with a 24 year old,  the year I turned forty!

The last but not least was by the far the nicest and most loving relationship I have encountered. Unfortunately, that  slowly disintegrated because we were quite clearly not on the same page, I no longer wanted to be the provider or his surrogate mother.

Quite an array of  interesting relationships, not forgetting the in betweenies, with a bevy of lessons having been learnt.

I know what I want and more importantly I am aware of what I will  not put up with and I am not going to accept anything less.

YOU GO GIRL!

So I did and subscribed to  an online dating service!